Serendipity in Life

“Mom, I don’t want to grow up…” I still remember what I said to my mother thirteen years ago. I did not want to feel the hardship in life. All I thought was about to have fun and to live without the feeling of sadness and disappointment. I miss my life when I didn’t know the meaning of misunderstandings, fights and evil things in this world.

               Seconds passed. Minutes passed. Hours passed. Days passed. I was slowly growing up. Bit by bit, I learned about the hard life. I’ve been through the bitters in life. I’ve been through to too many complicated things that are difficult to be explained. Sometimes I felt that my life was too empty. But sometimes I felt that my life was too occupied with things that I shouldn’t be worried of.  And it was stuck in my head that my life would be very difficult to be cured again like before.

                In just a short period of time, I lived such a wonderful and a happy life nobody could have imagined. I remembered smiling and laughing with joy and delight, not knowing what does stress and depression mean, not knowing what fear and anxiety mean.

                But time was running so fast. All my life, all I’ve experienced was all fear and stress. The thing that haunted me the most was the judgments of others. Faces that keep pretensions. I always wanted to get rid of them. I kept on asking myself what is it that I did that made them act like that? Why and what should I do? Nobody wanted to eliminate the ego within them. Selfishness, stubbornness, evilness. How could they do this to a child? It has made the life of a child tainted with germs that could change her life forever. Even one word can hurt her and leave scars in her.

               It is my intention to experience the harmonious life and full of joy.  That was the first thing I really wanted since high school –to acquire a life of bliss. Keeps me wondering how others can smile sweetly and joyously.

“Don’t worry too much. That’s how life goes on. It circulates.” Mother has always been my supporter. She listened to me complaining and crying and yet very gentle and patient.  Serendipity has enriched my life intellectually and emotionally. It even stepped in and surprised me. This whole thing that happened to me has enhanced my life. It had made me stronger. By the same token, it turned me to a mature minded person.

              Since entering university, I found out that people are so different from each other.  They have different goals, different dreams and different way of life. I could now understand why some people act differently.  Judgment is one of the key to a successful life – if we look at the bright side. That’s how I can improve myself. Not all people are perfect but all people can wipe out the blemishes within them.

Thankfully, I could understand life gradually even though I couldn’t have what I really wanted. I’ve learned how to polish myself to be better. I didn’t expect to understand all this situations.  

This is serendipity. 

                                                                                                                                    Prepared by,
                                                                                                                                            Edith Edna