Her Quiet Eyes

Her Quiet Eyes

          

          Chester Mille, a small town that far away from city a places that I was born until I can feel hurt, about family, relationship, friendship, love, happy and everything is here. I’m a single daughter of my parent. They love me, give me everything I want. It all complete without any mistakes and I everything for them. When I’m teenager I want to feel free. Every night going to a bar with my girls, enjoying the night with my love and friends. Mum and dad just let me go to doing what I want.

          One night when I come back to home I’m over drunk and fighting with mum. The first time mum have speak louder to me and dad just silent. I need dad to support me but dad just seeing. I can hear mum telling that I just an adopted daughter. Oh my God! How can mum saying that? I get the car key and leave the house. Mum crying. I know mum feel apologies. Again and again I asked myself why mum saying that? It is true? Going to my friend house and sleep with her tonight. Long night, same day, I can’t sleep. I always thinking about mum. 

         The next day when I go home it was silent like a city sleep. Everything is change because of yesterday. Old song are hearing from the next house. Mum saying apologies. Mum please tell me the true. Than mum tell all about me. How can mum tell me when I was twenty. Why mum did not tell me a long time ago. I hate mum and dad. I want to know who I am. I push mum to tell who is my parents.

    

        A long journey to a small town I’m going alone without mum and dad permission. The hospital that I was born already close. Disappointed. But the nearby villager tell that someone who are loyalty to the hospital has alive and I get her address.

    

       Knock a door. Come someone who are older women open it. Her name is Mdm. Broome. She see my necklace and smile. Mdm. Broome hug me before I’m saying anything. She telling me everything. Mdm. Broome was the nurse at the hospital a place that I was born 20 years ago. She is my mum friend. She stop working after the incidence. My mum want to abort me. How crazy my mum. Why must she doing that. I’m just a baby. I want to breathing, I want to see world, and everything I want to feel. But the day of the abortion, it was not happen because some mistake that the doctor was doing. That why you still alive said Mdm. Broome. After I was born mum give me to Mdm. Broome. Only two month Mdm. Broome know about mum. After that day mum was gone and leave us. Her name is Sara Will. A beautiful name that I hear. I want to see mum. Mdm. Broome said that I really like my mum. After that a married couple come and adopt me to be their daughter. Mdm. Broome give me an address. But my mum name now is change.

      Old place that have a small house that mum was doing a life alone without anyone that can love and take care of her. I can feel it and now it just a memory. Have a new family stayed at the house. The owner give me a new address and the name is Alicia Robe. She is a famous girl who is rich and have a big company in the city.

      The next day I will go to mum office. I hope this is the day that I can meet her. I miss a hug. I knock a door. When I open the door I can see a beautiful women are standing like an angel to me. I hug mum, I am crying but mum did not doing anything. Mum asked me who are you. I tell her that I am her daughter. I show the necklace.  Mum have a shock impressed. Someone open the door. I see her husband. Than he tell my mum who I am. Mum said that I just a stranger. I’m very sad. Mum was leave me again and again. I did not feel pain like this.

        I did not give up. The next day I want to meet mum again. I want she call me daughter. I hold her hand and feel that have a chemistry between us. Mum can I hug you for a minute , that was I feel. Than mum said to me ‘ just go daughter’. The day like a doomsday when I hear it from mum. Everything darkness. I do not have a future. I don’t have mum. Mum, I love you. She let me go. Mum hug her new son and seeing me. I can see her eyes that telling me sorry. She did not realise , imploring her to be nice, and hope mum in paradise, I close my eyes. Pray for mum to be nice and now I lost her for a twice.

      Now I know that everything that we want not everything that we can find. I back to my parent. We are happy and mum I will remember you until I die. Do not start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday, because each day is a new beginning , every morning we wake up is the first day of our life. Mum teach me everything. Pass is pass. I love u mum, please believe it’s true, when I say forever know I’ll never leave you, when I say goodbye, promise me you won’t cry, cause the day I’ll saying that would be the day I die. Mum, I love you.